NEW Hand Phone number...

For those of you who have been trying to contact me or sent me sms on my 012-6322252 number since Wednesday, I'm sorry buy my phone have been confiscated by my beloved english lecturer. Let's not talk about it.

Anyway my new temporary number will be 017-3144467 effective from NOW until further notice.

Take care and God Bless everyone..

Just another boring update....

That's how my table looked like when the due date for my english research paper was approaching!! Almost got drown with papers. Actually cleared my table up a little bit before taking this picture. Ahaha. Well, but I'm glad it is over. Handed in on time. Was so stress trying to complete it until my body broke down on the last night and got really sick. Really bad migrane, fever and the flu together. Woke up next morning with my whole body aching, couldn't even walked downstairs!! But thankfully by the grace of God, I managed to finish everything and hand in in time. Quite amazing actually!

At least I passed one crazy hurdle in MUFY. What next?? well, I have my presentation on my research topic to present on tuesday. Now ever since I was a kid, even though Church has train me to be infront of everyone on the stage many times, I still have stage fright till today! I really can't stand infront of everyone and make eye contact with them. It just scare the shit out of me. Seriously! So what will happened to me this coming Tuesday is going to be interesting!! Just hope I will make it through. Have to prepare my materials to present somemore. At least I get to use the LCD projector, no evil OHP for me anymore!!

Actually other then college, nothing much to blog about really. Things are really in a total mess in my life for me right now. Hope God will help me go through it. Just really want to be alone. Everything has been too crazy lately. My finals is slowly approaching, and very soon that stress is going to start hitting me soon. With me still failing consistently in Math B and Physics not showing any improvement, I think I'm going to throw my dad's RM16k down the drain. Really hate to disappoint him. I've already disappointed myself, so there's no difference.

Is actually really amazing how much college life can change someone. It has certainly changed me. I'm actually very afraid of what I can become by the time I graduate, or IF I actually make it to graduation day! Is like the devil is working everywhere in college!! Temptations everywhere, and if you give the devil just a little foothole, then it is really over. Need to walk closer with God!! Desperately need to! Is the only way I can survive....

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Here is a very beautiful story I would like to share, I won't be surprise if some of you have read it, but anyway, enjoy it!!

A store owner was tacking a sign above his door that read "Puppies for Sale." Signs like that have a way of attracting small children, and sure enough, a little boy appeared under the store owner's sign. "How much are you going to sell the puppies for?" he asked.

The store owner replied, "Anywhere from $30 to $50."

The little boy reached in his pocket and pulled out some change. "I have $2.37," he said. "Can I please look at them?"

The store owner smiled and whistled and out of the kennel came Lady, who ran down the aisle of his store followed by five teeny, tiny balls of fur. One puppy was lagging considerably behind. Immediately the little boy singled out the lagging, limping puppy and said, "What's wrong with that little dog?"

The store owner explained that the veterinarian had examined the little puppy and had discovered it didn't have a hip socket. It would always limp. It would always be lame. The little boy became exited. "That is the little puppy that I want to buy."

The store owner said, "No, you don't want to buy that little dog. If you really want him, I'll just give him to you."

The little boy got quite upset.He looked straight into the store owner's eyes, pointing his finger, and said, "I don't want you to give him to me. That little dog is worth every bit as much as all the other dogs and I'll pay full price. In fact, I'll give you $2.37 now, and fifty cents a month until I have him paid for."

The store owner countered, "You really don't want to buy this little dog. He is never going to be able to run and jump and play with you like the other puppies."

To this, the little boy reached down and rolled up his pant leg to reveal a badly twisted, crippled let leg supported by a big metal brace. He looked up at the store owner and softly replied, "Well, I don't run so well myself, and the little puppy will need someone who understands!"

Experiencing unbelievable amount of stress

I'm not suppose to be blogging now, but if I continue thinking about my college, I'll really just snapped. I'm really 99.91% to breaking down right now....

I've so many questions which I don't know how to do for my Math B homework, and I've to hand it up to my lecturer IN her office tomorrow morning!! On Thursday, I have my Math B test on a chapter which I'm so totally lost in, and my teacher said I really HAVE to pass already, and I've TOTALLY NO confidence in doing so. And to make things worst, Friday is the due date for my English Research paper!! And I have barely started anything, I mean how could I? I'm writing about abortions for minors, and there are totally NO relevant information about any abortions issues in Malaysia on the internet!! I can't even find the current law or statistics of abortion in our country!!! How pathetic is that???? And how can i submit a research paper this Friday??? AND to make things WORST somemore, out of the blues, my "beloved" english lecturer announce today that I'll be the SECOND speaker for the english research presentation, and is on next Thursday!!! AND worst still, I'm the only one who's so unlucky to get forced to use only the OHP to make my presentation just because I did not attend her class last Friday when she was making a survey!!!!!!! Everyone else can happily make powerpoints!!!!!!!!!!

THIS IS ALL JUST DAMN PLAIN CRAZY I TELL YOU!!! HOW MUCH LONGER CAN I TAKE ALL OF THIS INSANE STRESS?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

What is the purpose of life??

I'm not really in the mood to blog, don't really know what to write, as there's a very very heavy black cloud hovering above my head, and a boulder in my heart that weight as much as me. Oh the stress, the amount of stress a teenager must live with has it's own limits. I wonder how much longer I can take it. I just hope I can last long enough and hold myself together long enough to hand up my research paper this Friday. Then I would really want to reward myself with a day off. Just stay home, in my room, alone, quiet and just seat back with a nice book and play my music which would transport me to another world all by myself.

I still can't figure out life. IF I've a chance to ask God ......OOOO!! It finally started raining!! Halelujah!! The heat was beginning to cook my brains....

Anyway.. IF i've a chance to ask God anything I want...ANYTHING at all, I would really want to know what is the purpose of my life. As I really do not know, sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night, staring into the darkness of my room, and asking myself, what am I doing here? Or why am I here? Or what am I suppose to do on earth?!

If talking about life in general, it seems pretty...boring?? A baby boy gets born. He grows up, go through school, learn about being a man, starts being mature, probably get into a relationship, get married, work until he retires, and then just wait for his time to come to die. Sounds sad right? But is true. Everyone will have to go through something similiar. Infact, there's no other way. So, what IS the purpose of life?

For me, I know I want to live a life that is glorifying to God's eyes. I would really want to live for Him, to spread His word, His message, the good news! I would really want to make a difference in anything at all, so that my life will be a little bit more different. I really hope I can touched someone's heart, I don't care how I do it, but I would want to make someone happy, as seeing people smile is all I need to help me keep going. I really hope I can take away all the pain and suffering on earth, from everyones heart, but then again, if there's no suffering, there won't be love also, or am I wrong? I would really want to live my life to the fullest, to enjoy every single thing God has Blessed me with, and to love every creature He created in His image.

Even though I do not know what is my purpose in life, but I do know one thing, that God has a plan for each and everyone of us. I believe we are all part of His great plan. So if I trust and love God, then I have to put my faith in Him...and trust that He'll use me for a great purpose....

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2 sisters leaving to Adelaide...


I can't really remember how I get to know them. I believe I know Melanie (left) through her sister Melissa, and Jeannie through...err...probably around YF kua. But anyway, I'm glad I've a chance to meet someone like them. Both also quite crazy, especially Jeannie, don't really know how to describe, but for those who know them, you'll know what I'm trying to say la.

Anyway, they will be leaving Malaysia tomorrow to further their studies in Adelaide, Australia (really nice place!) in Psychology. Hmmm.. I wonder if their future patients can live through a session with them..ahaha...just joking! So anyway, just want to wish them all the best in their studies abroad and don't sway away from God while in a foreign land.

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Updates on project JL's Satria GTi


"Improve" gas absorbers

Finally changed my absorbers!! I was suffering with my old absorbers, 3 out of the 4 absorbers were spoiled! The front 2 "stopper" has already broken through, so my suspension doesn't limit anymore on how low it could go, so I would have to go though bump really slow or else my front lip is going to get scratch. My back left absorbers was leaking, probably spoiled it after carrying 7 people in my car!!

Anyway, I got myself a new set of sport gas absorbers by "Improve" to pair with my "Improve" sport springs I bought earlier. And how well do they pair up?? Really good!! Now my car is much stiffer, even though comfort is not really there now as this absorber is so stiff that it is really bumpy on the road, but the handling has been improved tremendously. For example, with my old suspensions, I couldn't even drive through the curve at the exit from NKVE to Damansara toll at 80 km/h without my back tires making screeching noises. But now with my new suspension, I sped through the curve at 120 km/h that day and I still have total confidence on my car, the body roll has reduced alot compared to the old one!

Other then the more bumpy ride on the road, I can say I'm pretty satisfied with this new suspension system...