Just another boring update....

That's how my table looked like when the due date for my english research paper was approaching!! Almost got drown with papers. Actually cleared my table up a little bit before taking this picture. Ahaha. Well, but I'm glad it is over. Handed in on time. Was so stress trying to complete it until my body broke down on the last night and got really sick. Really bad migrane, fever and the flu together. Woke up next morning with my whole body aching, couldn't even walked downstairs!! But thankfully by the grace of God, I managed to finish everything and hand in in time. Quite amazing actually!

At least I passed one crazy hurdle in MUFY. What next?? well, I have my presentation on my research topic to present on tuesday. Now ever since I was a kid, even though Church has train me to be infront of everyone on the stage many times, I still have stage fright till today! I really can't stand infront of everyone and make eye contact with them. It just scare the shit out of me. Seriously! So what will happened to me this coming Tuesday is going to be interesting!! Just hope I will make it through. Have to prepare my materials to present somemore. At least I get to use the LCD projector, no evil OHP for me anymore!!

Actually other then college, nothing much to blog about really. Things are really in a total mess in my life for me right now. Hope God will help me go through it. Just really want to be alone. Everything has been too crazy lately. My finals is slowly approaching, and very soon that stress is going to start hitting me soon. With me still failing consistently in Math B and Physics not showing any improvement, I think I'm going to throw my dad's RM16k down the drain. Really hate to disappoint him. I've already disappointed myself, so there's no difference.

Is actually really amazing how much college life can change someone. It has certainly changed me. I'm actually very afraid of what I can become by the time I graduate, or IF I actually make it to graduation day! Is like the devil is working everywhere in college!! Temptations everywhere, and if you give the devil just a little foothole, then it is really over. Need to walk closer with God!! Desperately need to! Is the only way I can survive....

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Here is a very beautiful story I would like to share, I won't be surprise if some of you have read it, but anyway, enjoy it!!

A store owner was tacking a sign above his door that read "Puppies for Sale." Signs like that have a way of attracting small children, and sure enough, a little boy appeared under the store owner's sign. "How much are you going to sell the puppies for?" he asked.

The store owner replied, "Anywhere from $30 to $50."

The little boy reached in his pocket and pulled out some change. "I have $2.37," he said. "Can I please look at them?"

The store owner smiled and whistled and out of the kennel came Lady, who ran down the aisle of his store followed by five teeny, tiny balls of fur. One puppy was lagging considerably behind. Immediately the little boy singled out the lagging, limping puppy and said, "What's wrong with that little dog?"

The store owner explained that the veterinarian had examined the little puppy and had discovered it didn't have a hip socket. It would always limp. It would always be lame. The little boy became exited. "That is the little puppy that I want to buy."

The store owner said, "No, you don't want to buy that little dog. If you really want him, I'll just give him to you."

The little boy got quite upset.He looked straight into the store owner's eyes, pointing his finger, and said, "I don't want you to give him to me. That little dog is worth every bit as much as all the other dogs and I'll pay full price. In fact, I'll give you $2.37 now, and fifty cents a month until I have him paid for."

The store owner countered, "You really don't want to buy this little dog. He is never going to be able to run and jump and play with you like the other puppies."

To this, the little boy reached down and rolled up his pant leg to reveal a badly twisted, crippled let leg supported by a big metal brace. He looked up at the store owner and softly replied, "Well, I don't run so well myself, and the little puppy will need someone who understands!"